Sick as a dog I sit here writing, but I’ve got to get this written down. I was introduced to Forsyth’s words during one of my bro’s service which completely shook my thinking. P.T. Foryth quotes, “The first duty of every soul is to find not its freedom but its Master.” Come on now, you know it’s true. We speak so much of needing freedom and get all perturbed if one limits our freedoms or, heaven forbid, removes a freedom. Forysth, I believe, is speaking to that part of us inside that is always looking for that secure, faithful, never failing Father.
Now in my own case new information has been graciously revealed showing my failing connection to the truth. To shelter myself from the pain of the past, I tend to lie to myself and/or twist crucial events from what truly occurred. Maybe a protective mechanism? Maybe it’s my poor way of dealing with pain. Who knows… I do know that the way I handle these things or shelter myself in the end is hurting myself. Here I am at a cross roads again. Do I do what feels comfortable and safe, or maybe take the leap and seek help from a higher source? If I take the former then I’m stuck in this repetitive cycle of trying to fix myself. Bouncing to and from person to person or addiction to addiction or shoot, even taking the “F-it” approach: “I’ma do me!” How’s that working out for ya? Wake up buddies! The past hurts. We are broken; we need not just a fix, but a carrying Master who wants to take on your burdens and heal you.
In my quiet times, I have finally arrived to that man after God’s own heart. Yep! That good ol’ King David, who wrote many of the Psalms, pours out his heart over mankind’s place in the universe. He states:
“O Lord, make me know my end and what is the measure of my days; let me know how fleeting I am! Behold, you have made my days a few handbreaths, and my lifetime is as a nothing before you. Surely all mankind stands as a mere breath! Surely a man goes about as a shadow! Surely for nothing they are in turmoil; man heaps up wealth and does not know who will gather” —Psalm 39:4-6
Some powerful stuff, eh? So yeah, you might be thinking right now, “Aight, I get the point. God this and that. He is all knowing and helping. yada yada yada.” My brother or sister, if that’s the mindset then your own ideas of God are wrong. Maybe it has to due with your own pains from the past you have transferred on to God. Maybe, like me, you blamed him for not being there; for the parent leaving or for your own loneliness. I don’t know your story. I do know self-medicating didn’t help me and I can bet it isn’t helping you.
“Left to ourselves we tend immediately to reduce God to manageable terms. We want to get Him where we can use Him, or at least know where He is when we need Him. We want a God we can in some measure control. We need the feeling of security that comes from knowing what God is like, and what He is like is of course a composite of all the religious pictures we have seen, all the best people we have known or heard about, and all the sublime ideas we have entertained.” – A.W. Tozer
Tozer nailed mankind’s mindset on God!! How true that we, the rebellious foolish creation, challenge Our Creator, thinking we know what is best. Our soul was created to worship. It deals with a yearning to be a part of something bigger. A world in desperate need of healing and loving. This is what our Master invites us to be a part of. To pluck us out of our own struggles and let go of our need for self-control. Too many of us strive for the God that fits us, but not truly viewing Him for who He is. As I ponder on words to describe Him, even I can’t figure out where to start. You know the best thing about God is that He is so many things that we cannot wrap our finite minds around Him; He is beautiful. The Bible, along past and current testimonies speak about who He is and even they can’t truly come close to describing the infinite, omnipresent, omnipotent, loving, graceful, merciful, caring, just, good, holy, knowing God. The word of God speaks to us about Him and the testimonies are conformations of His existence.
I’ve got a lot of quotes here don’t I? I do it because these men from days past have truths I feel are worth sharing. I fill my times with seeking knowledge on this area of life that I will spend the rest of my life and eternity trying to understand. It’s overwhelming the limitless wisdom and knowledge the spirit of God can give once asked. The shoes Jesus wore, no person can fill or surpass. Surely we are daft to try and top Him, but how it doesn’t stop us. Our soul needs the Master yet the thought sends you into a tense stance ready to pounce on the challenger. Maybe letting go and facing the change is not as bad as you make it out in your head.
Faithful men and women of God, we should strive to fear Him and serve Him in holiness and honor. How Christians forget that at times.
This, this is the God we adore,
Our faithful, unchangeable Friend, Whose love is as great as His power, And neither knows measure nor end.
Tis Jesus. the first and the last, Whose spirit shall guide us safe home; We’ll praise Him for all that is past, And trust Him for all that’s to come. — Joseph Hart